I Now Wear Black............
I now wear black because I have been diagnosed with Melanoma Cancer.
As I sit here in my office typing this, tears are running down my cheeks. I had a biopsy last Thursday on a mole that had changed and become somewhat unusual in color and size. My doctor gave me the shot in my stomach where the mole is, cut out a piece and sent it away to the pathologist. I thought that the waiting to hear back was the going to be the hardest part of this all, but turns out, I was wrong!!
Tuesday afternoon, May 6th, I got the call from my doctor. The words, "You have cancer", still ring in my ears at times when my mind seems to be so empty. This has been the hardest part yet. I am weak in spirit, broken hearted and I find myself crying a lot. I wake up in the morning, lay in bed and am fine and then it once again sinks in what is happening and the emotions start all over again.
I now find myself in a strange world. A world that I have only seen others in. I am trying to adjust to hearing all of the cancer terms of thickness, Clarke level, cells dividing, plastic surgeon, oncologist, and it makes me queasy when I realize that they now apply to me. I am being educated in the midst of my fear.
I went to Gilda's club yesterday to meet with Missy Wright, www.gildasclubqc.org and she was so sweet and she helped me to prepare for my appointment with my surgeon. Love that!
I go to the surgeon on Monday the 12th to have my first consultation and will find out about the pathology report and the plans for the future. Only God knows what the future holds for me and I trust always that it is his plans and his will.
You ask what Melanoma cancer looks like? It looks like this:
A Wife, Mother, Daughter, Sister, Granddaughter, Aunt, Cousin, & friend
To be continued..........
As I sit here in my office typing this, tears are running down my cheeks. I had a biopsy last Thursday on a mole that had changed and become somewhat unusual in color and size. My doctor gave me the shot in my stomach where the mole is, cut out a piece and sent it away to the pathologist. I thought that the waiting to hear back was the going to be the hardest part of this all, but turns out, I was wrong!!
Tuesday afternoon, May 6th, I got the call from my doctor. The words, "You have cancer", still ring in my ears at times when my mind seems to be so empty. This has been the hardest part yet. I am weak in spirit, broken hearted and I find myself crying a lot. I wake up in the morning, lay in bed and am fine and then it once again sinks in what is happening and the emotions start all over again.
I now find myself in a strange world. A world that I have only seen others in. I am trying to adjust to hearing all of the cancer terms of thickness, Clarke level, cells dividing, plastic surgeon, oncologist, and it makes me queasy when I realize that they now apply to me. I am being educated in the midst of my fear.
I went to Gilda's club yesterday to meet with Missy Wright, www.gildasclubqc.org and she was so sweet and she helped me to prepare for my appointment with my surgeon. Love that!
I go to the surgeon on Monday the 12th to have my first consultation and will find out about the pathology report and the plans for the future. Only God knows what the future holds for me and I trust always that it is his plans and his will.
You ask what Melanoma cancer looks like? It looks like this:
To be continued..........
You are not alone. Know that. You're a blessing to so many so .. . STAY STRONG! My neighbor across the street has had several melanomas removed and he finds plenty of trouble to get in. (Grin) Hang in there kiddo! Prayers.
ReplyDeleteWow, you are an incredible writer! I am in tears reading this. You are an amazing woman! You have the best family to support you through this. I am so sad this is happening to you. I'm so glad you connected with Gilda's early. I will be sending prayers for you and for your family. Special prayer for the best possible pathology reportat your appointment Monday. Love you, Heather
ReplyDeleteSo touching Heather. God will give you strength. Praying.
ReplyDeleteYour faith will get you through and when that doesn't the kids and I will come play mouse is looking for a house with you. So blessed you are in ours lives.
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